I’m bad at relationships. I have this thing where I like to not let people that I’m in a relationship with know me completely, or even really discussing my feeling too much depth. Someone told me that they think its because I’ve encountered so much loss in my life. I don’t know, I kinda think thats bullshit. I’m just scared shitless of letting someone get inside my heart making it their home, leave all their junk around and make a mess, then leave me with all this shit to clean up. The bigger the mess the longer it takes for you to clean up. I’m just not ready to let someone take up residence in my heart until I know that they won’t leave. Love is only something that should be given not taken away.